Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Introducing the Hartzell's.....finally the long awaited email !

We have really waited on pins and needles, imagining many scenarios that could have played out, about the day that Judith and Kerby found out about their new forever family !  As I said in my last post, we were told they were going to be introduced to us and receive our "family book" that Molli jo put together for them, on Judith's birthday which was April 1st.  We waited all month and heard nothing from the orphanage, which of course got our minds thinking of scenario's that were not ideal. BUT saturday morning I got that all exciting name in my inbox.....  Molly for the orphanage had sent us a beautiful description of Judith's special day and a great description of how they introduced us along with pictures of the big event !!!  
Needless to say we spent a great deal of Saturday and really the weekend distracted, excited, and also tearful.  I can't really describe what it is like to know that they have seen us and learned a little bit about our family and I really can't explain why it is such a huge deal for us, but it is.  It really makes us feel so much more connected to them and just makes things feel so much more certain.
I am going to copy some of the letter from the orphanage, not all of it as some of it should remain a little private for Judith and Kerby's sake.  I will also post what we think are some of the most gorgeous pictures ever !!!   :)  The family book is a scrapbook that Molli jo made for them. They each got a present from us. Judith's is the black and pink outfit, locket necklace, and more necklace beads.  Kerby got the green and navy outfit and a pack of legos.


Here is the letter :

Hello Rori & Ryan,
So Judith anticipated her birthday all week long….  She even painted a picture of what she wanted her cake to look like, originally bright orange .  But then when it came down to it and she told me what she wanted it was different.  Purple cake and pink frosting.  Joyce got her a special sparkler candle to go on the top which freaked her out, she thought it was going to light the table on fire! 
Judith’s birthday party celebration involved the oldest kids at the GLA Toddler House who also happen to be the kids in her morning English class, so the whole class got the morning off in honor of her day (also in trying to keep it on par with Kerby’s birthday just the week before and they had gotten the morning off due to the teams)  At 11am we started her party.  Joyce and I met with Judith and Kerby before the planned celebration.  
We told them of you, something like this:   “You do have a new family.   The two of you together.  Your family is very excited to take you home with them and teach you all the things that their family does and how they do it, to love you, to call you brother, sister, son, and daughter.  Your family has had to do a lot of paperwork, and talk to a lot of people, and wait a long time already.    Now all their papers are here in Haiti and we have to wait for your papers to be done. It will take a lot lot longer before your family can come and get you, but they wanted very badly for you to have photos of them like they have photos of you. So you can begin to love them from afar like they love you.”  The whole time they are just silent.  No questions just starting at Joyce and I, Kerby grinning, Judith smiling timidly.  (That right there gives you a little window into their personalities.)   
And then we let them open their photo album.  Judith grabbed it up and you could tell she didn’t want to be the second one to notice anything about the photos.  Kerby just took it in.  I won’t go into more detail because we filmed it and I will email it through YouSendIt.com right after I send this out.  They would have poured over it forever… but then we told them the gifts were from you as well and they pounced. 
They were so thrilled with your pkgs, and the clothes fit them very well.  Great job on the sizes.  They changed into them right away.  Kerby wore his for the day and then carefully put it away for special times.  He wears the shorts off and on, but usually pulls out the shirt just for days he really wants to look nice. Judith wears her outfit as often as it is clean.  And considering we do laundry every day she wears it almost that often.  
They posed for photos, just radiating joy.  Then when Joyce asked if they were ready yet for the kids and the party, they both agreed, and Judith ran out and called Eunise, Edelyne, Johanne, Montesuqieu, Rilinxe, and Endy to come.   The first thing they wanted to do was show YOU off of course.  They showed their album to the kids they are closest too, and just briefly explained who was in the photos.  It was really much quieter time than I expected, everyone was happy for them, real photos of a real family, it was really happening!  They are the first in their peer group to have an album and faces to put with their new family.  I think they would have just looked and looked but we steered them back to the table and the rest of the party continued though it was definitely nothing special after the news and items that preceded it.  Judith opened her presents.  Happy and grateful for each thing as she unwrapped them.  She asked Kerby to stay and sit with her and would have even let him open gifts for her if we had let her.  They really needed to be next to each other, and even later that day when they usually would have been playing apart they stuck closer together.   Then we had cake.  Joyce lit the special candle she had gotten her and Judith jumped back.  She told her that the cake was going to light on fire with such a big flame and then laughed unsurely at herself and how close she was getting to it.  We sang, and sang, and let sparkler burn down till it was almost out and then she blew.  She served the first piece and then let me take over.  The kids had cake and by this time it was after lunch so they all ran down, got their plates and then settled in to watch “The Princess and the Frog”.  It was the first time they seen it, and we had to monitor it because of the “magic” that every child is surrounded by people believing in in Haiti we have to be very careful about what pretend magic we show in movies.  Judith liked the movie, but with the amount I had to fast forward in it, I am not sure they all understood it exactly.  Its magic is too close to the evil magic they have all heard about so I’ve passed the movie on and we won’t be watching it again.   The kids like to stick with the Air Bud movies for now.
Thanks for your patience!  Hope that this gives you a little window into what happened, and I hope the video will send to you without much difficulty.  It should be fairly small in file size, it is 2.5 minutes long. 
Photos are attached. 
Blessings to you on this Easter weekend…. 

Molly



















Friday, April 22, 2011

April Updates.....

There is nothing quite as exciting as opening up my email and seeing the inbox say "GLA-Updates" and knowing that there is a great surprise behind that email.  Every month the orphanage sends us a written update with what Judith and kerby have been up to during the month, information about height and weight, and then a fresh new batch of adorable pictures.  This month was no exception!

I must say thought, I was a bit disappointed because I have been trying so hard to be patient and wait for the email update to see if the information regarding Judith's birthday and the kids responses in finding out about us and receiving our family book was included.  It was not.  We still don't know if they told the kids about us, what their responses were, how Judith's birthday was, and pictures of the kids opening their birthday gifts from us.  We were told they would tell the kids about us on Judith's birthday, April 1st, but we have heard nothing and it is killing me.  I have worked so hard to be patient mostly having some self-control because I thought "well, it will be in the monthly update" but its not.  I am feeling my self-control disintegrating.  Patience Rori, patience...all in good time I suppose.

I am however grateful for the update that we did get.......













Happy Good Friday.....and thank you Jesus for what is to come on Sunday!  We serve an amazing and gracious God. We have so much to be thankful for in what Jesus sacrificed for us. Praise Jesus for who He is and what He has done. All He asks in return is to not only know who He is, but to have a relationship with Him, to love Him, and to love others and be in true relationship with them.  Fall in love with Jesus....the reward is more than can ever be imagined !!!

Monday, April 18, 2011

Time flies !!!

Wow, how did it become April already?  How has the time gone so quickly?  I wish that I had more to update on than I do, but we have made some headway on the adoption front.  Kerby turned 10 years old on March 20th. We all had a bit of mixed emotions with not being able to be with them. We had a little birthday party for him while we were at the beach in our trailer. We sang happy birthday, thought and talked about him all day, and then had ice cream cones. Molli, Mason, and Mark enjoyed having our own birthday party for Kerby and hoping it is the last one he celebrates without his family.

Molly from the orphanage sent us AMAZING pictures and a beautiful description of his day. All I could think was "man, I hope his new mom can give him such a great birthday party".  He awoke in the morning singing "Happy birthday to meeeee" and the day sounded like it went up from there.
Molly (orphanage Molly not our Molli) also told us that they decided to wait and not give Kerby his gift from us until Judith's birthday (April 1st)  and at that time both kids would get their gifts together.  Molly also said that after a lot of discussion, they decided they would give the kids our "family book" and begin to introduce them to who we are and begin the process of giving them information about us.  This is a really big step in the process.  Obviously huge for Judith and Kerby and not so small for us either!  We have been waiting on pins and needles for information about Judith's birthday and how the kids did in learning about us. Molly had said she would send us all that information---we are still waiting to hear something.

 I work really hard to not let my mind settle in the uncertainty of what not hearing anything from Molly yet means.  I could easily cross over into thinking the kids must be having a hard time with it, they must not like us, etc.....God stops me and reassures me that He, and only He, has this process covered. I will only create obstacles for His plans if I continue to throw myself in the way and not completely turn things over to Him.  Let Him use me, not have to move me out of the way.  I just so deeply pray that Judith and Kerby's hearts were settled, peaceful, and that they felt unexplainable love when they were introduced to us through our pictures and words. I pray that it did not create fear, sadness, or more uncertainty for them. I truly cannot believe how you can love someone so much when you haven't met them yet, but I do....we do.   We love Judith and Kerby in a way that doesn't make sense other than to know that Jesus Himself placed that love within our hearts for 2 children that were meant to be a part of our family.

I have moments, although not often, such as during spring break when I am sitting in our 5th wheel in the wind and rain at the beach with the kids  (tight quarters :) ) , that I can get a glimmer of a panic feeling thinking "oh my, how are two more children going to fit in here?  Can we really do this?  Do Ryan and I have what it takes to make this work and raise 5 children who love Jesus and contribute well to this world?"......... What truly amazes me out of those moments is that God has immediately answered me. For some reason up to this point during this process, God has chosen to not leave my doubt or questions hanging for more than 24 hours. It is almost like clockwork. Now I am not saying that God has to answer me immediately etc., but I am in awe of how clear He has been. He does not let me settle into a place of fear, uncertainty, or questioning for very long. I realize these are just words that I could say regardless of how strongly I really feel them, but words are all I have to share my experience. I truly can't explain adequately how strongly present God has been during this adoption walk....I have not had to even begin to look for Him, He is just STRONGLY there.  Expressing myself in words is not my strongest gift so I apologize that this is not eloquently written.  My friend Rochelle has a gift with words like no other and God has connected me to her and her words so often express almost exactly what I am feeling in my heart.  I don't have Rochelle's gift, wish I did, but I don't.  Maybe that makes me appreciate her gift even more.

So back to the update.  We had to update our homestudy to account for the increased ages of the kids. It has taken months to get this paperwork done again- months !  I am really now officially sick of the paperwork.  I know our dossier is finally fully in Haiti and am hoping and praying that it has been submitted to IBESR (Haitian social services), but I don't know for sure.  The next step involves waiting for our first court date. The first court date has now been moved to after your dossier has been all the way through IBESR. It used to happen while it was in IBESR, so that means we make our first travel date later than we would have.  A bit of a disappointment, but one thing I have learned so far is that when dealing with an adoption in Haiti, you really just have to "roll with it" or you might have to be institutionalized by the time the process is completed.  God know how much I like planning and structure and He is getting quite a chuckle out of me in this process......he-he  :)

Well, I will post some pictures of Kerby's birthday and some update pictures from March.  We should be getting our April update within the next week or two and I promise to post those right away.  God is good and His plans are so much more than we could ever really imagine !!!

Choose to make it a great day !



Here is a link to Judith singing a solo :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=afnzuUcWTEo

AND

Here is a video link to copy and paste of Judith and Kerby singing !!!!
http://dl.dropbox.com/u/17590820/VIDEO0007.3gp